Use caution when approaching me. Look for eye contact. Smile and see if I smile back before coming too close. Don't try and empathize with this process or analyze it, unless you have been there done that...well okay, you can just a little, but please don't ignore it and pretend that this isn't happening. See, caution recommended.
Okay, so as usual I am exaggerating. But MAN am I experiencing some serious mood swings with this waiting game. Being #2 on the girl's waiting list. Seeing some people who have gone before me get their referral within days at this point and others waiting months. Seriously, SERIOUSLY?!
Deep breaths. I am ecstatic one minute. You know when this occurs b/c I am on fb blabbing about the wait list and dancing around on my tip toes with a giddy look on my face. And then this other feelings comes....that feeling that means "what if this referral doesn't happen anytime soon." "What if it never happens." That is when I leave my phone in my car and stop talking about adoption. Where is my phone right now anyway? Who cares. I have to step away to keep my sanity.
But, don't worry! That/this doesn't last long. I get all bubble-icious again and start my manic happy state. Oh God, does this mean that the adoption process has given me bi-polar tendencies? A wise friend told me that everyone has some form of mental illness. Yep, that means you too. Haha, I'm not alone after all.
Just wanted to give you fair warning that I may be moody. Okay? OKAY?!?!?! okay.
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The moodiness goes for both me and theresa. When we are swinging from mood to mood in sync we don't even notice, but when we get out of sync it mAkes for interesting times.
Jonathan
I will be on the look out for new baby girls just for you when I leave TOMORROW! I promise to take lots of pictures of potential eastie babies if they let me:)
Okay :)
unfortunately it comes with the territory-when we were #2 and #3 on the lists (we were on both) and it was time for AGCI to reopen after the holidays,i was out shopping for a new calendar, couldn't find the one i wanted and literally sat in the car out side the store in great heaping sobs b/c i couldn't find it and WHY didn't ANYONE have it and life is HORRIBLE! yeah, i get the mood swings-and it is ok, swing away, you are among friends :)
Oh boy do i know EXACTLY what you mean. I swing between living my life on tenterhooks (eg, checking my mail at seven thirty in the morning today, JUST IN CASE!!) and thinking - it's never, ever going to happen. urgh, it's horrible!
Wanted you to know that we are praying for your precious family...we are friends of the Lucht family and were there when they arrived home with Silas. We also adopted our daughter and are in the process of our second adoption. Just wanted you to know you are being prayed for...and your daughter is beyond precious! :)
~Kandra
All I am going to say is I know exactly how you feel! I keep checking in on you. This will all melt away in an instant. I think it's so great that blogs are around so people that have been there are are doing it right along with you can share, because until you have been in the process you really have no idea what it is like. Praying for you!
Dude...If you see my head spinning and pea soup spewing out of me...you'll know that I'm right there with you...and we're not nearly as close to the top as you are. Hang in there...and enjoy the ride. Oh, and thanks for the warning ; )
Love ya!
Happens to the best of us. Hang in there and eat lots of chocolate and ice cream. Some days that made a difference. I was hitting refresh like 50 times a day sometimes an hour on the forum waiting to see if referrals were announced. I wasn't even thinking about adoption when our call came. Sending you hugs from afar :)
We have been on the waitlist for 2 weeks and I am doing the whole mood swing thing. I can't imagine how I will feel when we are at the top of the list. Hang in there. I will be excited to see when you get your referral! As of now our number is 14 on the boys. Who knows what our actual number is though :)
Oh yes, I think all us adoptive moms have been there!! It is such an emotional ride, but SO worth it!! I can't wait till you get the call... come on phone!!!
ha! guess what - you're normal but have just joined a new club ;) the "crazy person because i'm in the waiting stages of an int. adoption" club. if i posted ALL of my dirt and various mood swings on my blog i fear that i'd have NO friends and/or some wise person would've committed me by now! you'll get that call any minute now and then...hold on girl :) looking forward to seeing your good news soon -
karin
There should be a diagnoses for the mentally unstable waiting adoptive mother! Though I've been told there is no end to mental instability for moms in general. :)
Thanks for visiting our blog and responding to my post on the listserv. By all means, feel free to add our blog to your list!! I will add yours too!
Here's hoping for a sweet girl coming your way very very soon!
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I keep checking on you today..you've been weighing on my heart. Hope you received some good news ! PEace to you!
And maybe if you leave your phone in the car, that will make the call come because you aren't really expecting it, right? Oh, the things that go on in our mind during the w-a-i-t. Mindless TV was a big help in that final month of the wait.
Cute post! You're not alone! Happy swinging!!
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